No Complaints

I don't know about other people, but I tend to do a lot of self-talk.
Lately, my self-talk revolves around me telling myself, "you have nothing to complain about". The things I grumble and mumble about are so piddly in the grand scheme of life. The things I think I need aren't needs at all, but simply selfish desires of what I think I should have. 
This morning I was reminded, yet again, that I have no complaints. I started a list in my mind of the things I am so thankful for that I often take for granted.

1. a husband who provides, who goes to/from a very stressful job without complaining
2. a husband who rocks a crying baby to sleep so that I can get a few moments to myself
3. a healthy, happy baby
4. a warm house
5. food in the fridge
6. running water
7. toilet paper in the bathrooms
8. a working car
9. internet, phone
10. at least 5 people that I know I can call at any time of the day 

I'll stop there for now. 
Over a year ago I was challenged by both Oprah and my pastor (in the same week!) to take time each day to write down one thing I'm thankful for, and you can't repeat! It has to be something new each day. And I did it for awhile, and then life, or whatever, happened and it fizzled out. Whether I write it down or mentally think it, I need to be more conscious about thankfulness and less focused on complaints. 

I Can't Imagine

When I watch my baby, I can't imagine what he will be like in 2 months, 4 months, 6 months time. Let alone what he will be like a year or more from now.
All I see is who my baby is right now. It's hard to believe that soon he will be crawling and then walking. I can't imagine him moving! Right now, when I put him on his tummy or back, he stays there. He kicks and flaps his arms a lot, but he doesn't go anywhere. It just seems like he will stay like this for a long time, but it won't be that long, and that is so weird.

I can't wrap my head around it. And I'm starting to get that panicky, mom feeling of 'don't grow up so fast'. 

Thankfulness

Now (compared to when I was younger and single) being a wife and mother, it's amazing how the simplest events, happenings, moments, things bring me to the deepest gratitude. 
For example,
1. quickly finding a recipe online, in which I already have all the ingredients, while baby is napping
2. putting all those ingredients in the crockpot in 15 minutes while baby happily plays (yes, this recipe was THAT quick! and I'm not a fast cook)
3. being humbled by my super efficiency when the crockpot won't turn on and I think it's broken (and nearly panic)
4. discovering that I needed to push the reset button on the electrical outlet so that crockpot will turn on
5. moby wrap to the rescue soothes a cranky, teething baby
6. rocking baby to sleep in the moby while watching ellen
7. baby sleeps on my chest for an hour and a half, therefore, no time to fix dinner....
8. ....however, crockpot to the rescue- dinner is ready in the crockpot when hubby comes home! 
9. put together a quick, simple salad and dressing
10. eat a homemade, whole foods dinner

and tonight I'm on my knees (figuratively, I'm too worn out for that) in thankfulness.